So I am trying very hard to get rid of this anger. I saw the Counselor on Thursday and asked him why it was me you abused. He asked me what your relationship was like with my brother. When I answered that you never made him go to school if he didn't want to in grade school, he'd miss weeks at a time. The counselor told me that neither one of us had a mother. You abused me and neglected Nick. You were either too selfish to care or you just weren't able to. Somehow hearing that made me feel a little better. I always looked at it that Nick got the mother that I didn't, that there was something wrong with me and that's why you abused me. That's not it, it's always been you. You weren't capable of being a mother to either of us but he doesn't even realize it. I guess I don't want to ruin that for him, I don't want to ooze my hatred into his heart.
I tried being the bigger person an having dad ask you if you wanted to see your grand kids for mothers day, you said you had to think about it. Josh calls you a few days later and you say no you don't want to see the kids because it's mothers day and Children should be with their MOTHERS.You can't slap me in the face through him, but nice try, you won't see the kids then you're missing out not me, but you're also hurting my son who asks for you and wants to spend time with you. Soon he will stop asking. Jill won't even remember you sooner or later, it's your loss.
